Daddy

My Dad

I know it's a little after Fathers day but that's ok I barely have enough time to sleep let alone sit on the computer and write... Anyways back to my dad.

I have called my dad, Daddy since I was little and probably always will. It's babyish but thats ok I don't have any cool nicknames for people so daddy is as good as it gets for me.

I already said a little bit about him in one of my earlier blogs but oh well. Here it goes.... My dad and I haven't always had the best relationship, he wasn't around a bunch when I was younger (or at least that I can remember) he would go to work before I woke up, come home around 6 eat dinner, go watch tv, then go to bed early. I can only remember one conversation I had with my dad before I was twelve and it was about how I was starting to grow up...and it lasted for I think around a minute.

So it's sad to say but I wasn't that upset when I found out that my parents were getting a divorce because I didn't even know my dad so not having him around was what I was used to.

Luckily with the divorce came a whole new relationship between me and my dad. He actually started to come around and seemed happy when he saw us. I started talking to my dad about everything! Especially because I couldn't talk to my mom cuz she drove me crazy (I was in a rebel stage of my life he he) (I am now out of that and love my mother VERY much infact she's my best friend) any ways.... So me and my dad's relationship grew out of no where and now I couldn't imagine my life without a dad that is so amazing and who loves me so much!

My dad holding my brother Daniel

Murmur...

So today I went to the Dr's office because I am in a research study to up a heartburn med's dosage from 20 to 50mg. They want me in the study because I have acid reflux disease.... and I want to be part of it because I get PAID!!!

Anyways... So I got there and Cass went with me for support (very sweet). We went in and talked to one of the researchers, got my blood drawn, did a blowing test for bacteria, and got my first ECG. I was feeling pretty good about things until the researcher said that my ECG was a little .... weird... and would have the PA take a closer look into it.

I wanted to cry but he made it seem like no big deal. So after all of that I had just one thing left ... my first physical in around 14 years (I was 5 the last time I had a full check up). The PA was really nice and seemed cool. He just kept smiling and didn't seem worried at all... til he got to my stomach. He seemed to be focusing on the middle of my stomach right under my ribs the most.

Then it was over... I thought. He was telling me what good health I was in, checking off his little list, then he came to my abdomin and that's when he told me he heard something.........unusual! :(
He told me that he heard a murmur in my artery that goes into my abdomin, or in other words my descending aorta. I wanted to cry right there but I was strong and held it in. But I have had other Dr's do the same stuff to my stomach that he did and I wonder why they didn't find my murmur before...

So in all I found out I have a murmur which I have to live with and just hope that I don't get an anuerysm. This scares me cause my grandpa had an anuerysm from his murmur that was exactly where mine is.

But I will keep everyone updated whenever I find out more...

Hard Times...

So right now I've kind of been going through a ruff time in my life. I lost the two only close friends that I have... it's worth it...later! I am now out of high school for good and I'm getting a little shove into the real world :(

I've been working since I was 15 so I thought that I would be ready to work a lot of hours and still be able to do stuff...I was VERY wrong. My whole life has become work.

So I've been dealing with all of this stuff alone... I have Cass but there is only so much that he can do. But I feel like it has helped me so much. I have even matured a bunch in the last month since lossing my friends! I'm thinking that it is all for the better.

My hard times are only building into my amazing years!

My mother!

My mom put me as my own follower and now I can't get find a way to get rid of it! I'm not really a freak! :( Just thought I'd let ya'll know!

4.0

So through out my high school experience I have done really good and really bad. There was a time in jr. high that I got a 3.9 but that was the highest I had ever gotten. Then in 10th grade my gpa was more around 0.7-1.4 .... I was going through a rebel stage. Then I decided to pick up the paste my Jr. year and actually start trying in school. I ended up never getting below a 3.0 but never a 3.5. Then my Sr. year I got a 3.6 first term and I was way excited... until both Cass and my old friend Jessica did just a little bit better then me. So my mom made a deal to give $50 to the person who got the best grades the next term, out of me and Cass. I ended up winning by just a few .00's with a 3.8 gpa. It felt fantastic so I decided to try to get a 4.0 the next term. I failed but not by much I ended up getting a 3.9. So I was really dedicated to getting a 4.0 this last term. I worked really hard to stay on top of things in class.... and I did it! I got a 4.0 my last term of high school!
YAY..... GO ME!

Last day of school

Today was my last day of high school. It is all bitter sweet, on one end I'm so excited to be out of school and moving on with my life, but on the other hand I'm so scared to be out of school and moving on with my life.

I never have liked Bountiful High to much, not because of any other reason than my heart will always belong to Fremont High and that is where all of my friends were able to graduate from, including Cass. I feel like I was cheated out of enjoying my senior year as much I could have.
I have met some amazing people though at Bountiful ... mostly teachers... or just people who work there ... in the daycare. :)

So I guess now I am off to college for the next 6 years and then I will finally be an adult.. weird, but so exciting. I am just so ready to grow up and have a family of my own but I also want to stay young and not have to worry about the real world... I'm in a very confusing state of mind right now.

CLASS OF 2009 LOOK OUT WORLD HERE WE COME!!!

Here are my pictures redone for some of you picky people...Cheryl!