50. things about me...

I seen this on one of my friends blogs and I decided to give it a try so here it goes....




1. I have an amazing boyfriend/ future husband.




2. I love my job even though most of the time I have no clue what I'm doing.







3. I have no clue what I'm doing about 95% of the time.







4. My family is huge a little crazy but I wouldn't trade them for anything.







5. I try to act tuff and like I have everything figured out but really I'm scared of what the future holds for me.







6. My goal in life is to be a good mom to my future kids.







7. I have a gut feeling that I can't have children (don't know why)







8. I want to be a Midwife because I think that the most beautiful thing in the world is childbirth (after all the blood and pain of the actual childbirth).




9. I would like to have a closer relationship with my grandparents.







10. I've witnessed death but never had a loved one die.











11. I sing... constantely...and then some more.




12. I love my brother Jesse more then he will ever know.







13. I'm terrified of chickens and I'm not stupid I know it's a weird fear.







14. I HATE being made fun of for being afraid of chickens.







15. I can't stand it when people say that I said stuff I never said.







16. I can't stand it when someone thinks they know how I'm feeling better than I do.







17. The only person that is to blame for my past is myself.







18. I have worked really hard to become a better person so that I can accomplish my dreams.




19. I would love to sing on Broadway.







20. I admire my mom more than anyone.







21. I have a bad hip already.







22. I have acid reflux disease.







23. I have an abdominal murmur.







24. I have weird problems.







25. I like to be around people who are older than I am.







26. I'm happy to be out of high school.







27. I am outgoing.







28. I am loud.







29. I like to have fun.







30. I've been to Hawaii.





31. I've been to Mexico.







32. I want to live forever because the thought of death scares me.... even more than chickens.







33. I loved being a CNA because I like to take care of people in need.







34. I have always wanted to play the guitar.




35. I was fired from my piano teacher when I was 5 because I wasn't progressing.




36. I was in the news paper when I was in Kindergarten for singing in a talent show and having my fingers crossed behind my back.

Yup that's me on the very top (The one with the cowgirl boots on)

37. I LOVE bread.

38. I LOVE pasta.

39. I LOVE brownies.

40. I think of myself as a pretty good poet and song writer.

41. I have really turned my life around for the better.

42. I LOVE SCRUBS!!!!

43. I want a little girl named Addi

44. I am loud :)

45. I kinda sometimes have a temper.

46. My mom is my best friend in the world.

47. I have the most amazing cat in the world.. Sammy!

48. I love to Laugh.

49. I am not short I am fun sized!!!

50. I for the most part am a very outgoing and happy person who just likes to have fun! :)

Thanks for reading 50 things about me!!!

Hawaii anyone?

I just got back from an AMAZING trip to Hawaii on Saturday night! It was one of the funnest trips that I've ever been on. The only thing that could have made it better was if Cass would have been able to come with us. It was me, my mom, Scott, and every now and again we seen Jesse. I was there for 8 days and 8 nights I left first thing on Saturday morning so I don't count that as a day there. We went scuba diving (ALOT), parasailing, hiking, biking, swimming, we went to Pearl Harbor, we went on a sunset dinner cruise, and we went to a Luau! I will put pictures up when I have a minute to upload them.

Frustrated :(

Ok so as anyone who reads this already knows I've had a little trouble with friends lately. I no longer have a girl friend that I can go to with everything. I even miss school because at least every other day I got to go to Cheryl in the daycare and let off my steam and tell my stories and then listen to how things were with her. Now I have no girls to talk to....ever. Can I just say how badly it sucks to have no one to call when I have a fight with Cass? Instead of calling a friend to complain about Cass (when I'm mad at him) I have to call Cass and complain to him about himself, I'm pretty sure it doesn't make him very happy!

I have a few friends but none that I would feel comfortable calling up when I am crying (I think thats what makes a good friend). I'm not saying that I want my old friends back in any shape or form cuz I've had the chance and I just don't want to have bad friends in my life I just want someone to be there for me .... kind of like a sub for Cass when he needs a day off from my crazy! Poor guy.

The one nice thing about not having a friend to go to is I have gotten so much closer to my family and Cass. I have always loved him and thought really highly of him but after the last few months I never realized how badly I took advantage of having someone there to talk to who actually listened and cared to know what I was saying. Same with my mom I feel like she is my best friend in the whole world (and it's nice that she can't just throw me away). I have found out a lot about her that I never knew before (like she has emotions, it's wierd) (Just kidding). My mom actually has gone through something alot like what I'm going through so it's nice to have her here to talk to even though she is tired of hearing me complain but I can't say that I blame her!

Either way, even though it totally sucks that I don't have a good gal pal that I can call up and hang out with, at the end of the day it's nice to have an amazing family and a wonderful man to come home to.